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Crack Don't Kill

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A special nurse from my old hospital was one of the many folks whose heart was captured by my son Seth. It's often that I walk in a find a crowd of people at his bed saying things like. "He smiled at me", "Well he smiled at me twice", "I can't believe what he's been through mom", " He's so sweet", "No way he's been through what he's been through". Sometimes random strangers who work in the hospital tap me and say, " oh are you Seth's mom?! I love Seth I played with him today!"

Back to the special nurse who became another mama to Seth. With tears in her eyes this nurse rode in an ambulance to drop Seth off at his new hospital last month. She grew so worried with all the negative reports. At that time the word was, "There we're no options for life and I needed to accept that." Of course I DID NOT. This nurse watched closely. My beliefs perplexed her.

She grew to love Seth and her heart was hurting. Four months ago she received a prophetic word from my friends Nelson and William. They came to pray for Seth. We had church in the NICU that day! The nurse was blown away and in shock. She'd never had an encounter with the prophetic until then. She covered her mouth, her eyes got huge and she told the other nurses about it the next day.

Today after hearing some shocking and GOOD news about Seth, she texted me and said, "God is good. And God is God". There are stories guys. Stories upon stories. People who now believe. People who decided to believe again because of a little boy who has yet to even speak a word. At first glance Seth and I may look unfortunate or broken. You may too... I ask you to look a little closer... Dig a little deeper. Something that's broken has cracks.  I now see that my cracks aren't defects but they let light shine through. Before you were broken maybe folks could only see you. But, when you ARE broken people can see glimpses of light through those cracks. 

Let me tell you crack doesn't kill! :-) Well these kind of cracks do not. You may not realize it but your broken situation may be the answer to your prayer. It may be the influence you wanted to have for the Kingdom. I prayed over my pregnant belly for a world changer; one who would shake the world for the Kingdom of God. The impact of Sth's  life came with a pain that brought a desperation of faith. I wrote a devotional while pregnant and feared releasing  it. Satan spoke to me and said ,  "no one is going to want a book of your prayers, look how far those prayers got you?" 

But, those prayers got me exactly what I prayed for... Impact on people for the glory of God. You see, you think testimonies are all about winning. But I say to you my friend... They are about what God is able to do through you, even when you are losing. We many times wait for the breakthrough moment to share and celebrate. What is even more effective is the impact you have while others watch you in a storm. Embrace what God may be doing WHILE you hurt...while you lose. That nurse now knows God is REAL! Thank God His light shined. You're blessed while you're broken. 

Mathew 5:3-11 

“Blessed are the poor in spirit,
    For theirs is the kingdom of heaven.
4 Blessed are those who mourn,
    For they shall be comforted.
5 Blessed are the meek,
    For they shall inherit the earth.
6 Blessed are those who hunger and thirst for righteousness,
    For they shall be filled.
7 Blessed are the merciful,
    For they shall obtain mercy.
8 Blessed are the pure in heart,
    For they shall see God.
9 Blessed are the peacemakers,
    For they shall be called sons of God.
10 Blessed are those who are persecuted for righteousness’ sake,
    For theirs is the kingdom of heaven.